An Intense Moment at the Jordan
this was a very tender lesson for me... I dont know if any of you know, but I lost my father, a few months over 4 years ago, (you can read an old post I did about that here if you want to check that out)
(and husband moved my book so I forgot to bring it today, so I dont have alot of specifics or quotes today)
Alot of the scenes Gire describes this time have alot to do with Jesus and his relationship with Joseph.... this made me remember the times I had with my dad, how his hands felt rough from working outside all day, how good it felt to hug him each night.... how grateful I am for what I had...
and I think this is one of the first times that Ive thought about my dad and was able to really smile instead of having tears come to my eyes.... and I thought about how Jesus must know how I felt - maybe he was even the same age I was when he lost Joseph
oddly enough, I just had a dream about my dad yesterday morning, he asked what my mom's and my favorite colors were.... it was nice, and then I ended the day with this lesson.... good day
I also started thinking about how I treat my Heavenly Father - do I embrace Him and praise Him as I should, or do I just let it slide b/c I know He isnt going anywhere (I thought my earthly dad wasnt going anywhere either).... reminds me that God is not just a genie to go to when I feel I need/want something, but rather my Father, who I need to love and honor....
(and husband moved my book so I forgot to bring it today, so I dont have alot of specifics or quotes today)
Alot of the scenes Gire describes this time have alot to do with Jesus and his relationship with Joseph.... this made me remember the times I had with my dad, how his hands felt rough from working outside all day, how good it felt to hug him each night.... how grateful I am for what I had...
and I think this is one of the first times that Ive thought about my dad and was able to really smile instead of having tears come to my eyes.... and I thought about how Jesus must know how I felt - maybe he was even the same age I was when he lost Joseph
oddly enough, I just had a dream about my dad yesterday morning, he asked what my mom's and my favorite colors were.... it was nice, and then I ended the day with this lesson.... good day
I also started thinking about how I treat my Heavenly Father - do I embrace Him and praise Him as I should, or do I just let it slide b/c I know He isnt going anywhere (I thought my earthly dad wasnt going anywhere either).... reminds me that God is not just a genie to go to when I feel I need/want something, but rather my Father, who I need to love and honor....
posted by dangermama at
9:58 AM
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Addie, I can so relate to the Father relationship. I, too, lost my dad, well it will be 5 years in April, and it IS difficult to talk about him w/o getting tears. *snif* :)
Even though I know I'll see him again, and I know Christ knew that, too, I still think He must have missed Joseph. He did cry over Lazarus so how much more did He miss His earthly father.
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Pilot Mom, at 12:30 PM
What hit me about your post was the part about taking God for granted... Well, He always was, is, and will be, right? I get to thinking that... and it leads to me putting off the things I know he wants me to do. I think that because He has all the time in the world, so do I. Uh oh.
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Claire Joy, at 12:50 PM
I remember the first time you and I talked about your father - I think it was in the comment section of the day I wrote about losing my friend, Jack. It's good when you get to the point in life where you can think about the ones you love and not always become instantly overcome with sad emotions, isn't it? It's almost like you get to "be" with them again because now you have your memories back without all the deep, stabbing pain to go with them.
And I have to tell you - from my perspective - I might not get to live every single minute of every day the way I want to but I sure realize the clock is ticking despite that fact. I may outlive all of you - or I may drop tomorrow - that is all for God to say - but living with this condition I really don't get up every morning without wanting to hug the stuffing out of God for giving me another day.
Especially when I get to spend it with YOU women.
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HeyJules, at 1:33 PM
today has been just awful, so its nice to come on here and get some encouragement
and Jules (I say this totally tongue in cheek) - does that mean you can kind of see where your heart thing is a gift b/c unlike most of us, you tend to live every day fully and not take so much for granted?
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dangermama, at 2:21 PM
Oh sure. I really do. And most days I am grateful for that. But the days where you really THINK about it - that you could just drop dead on your way to the grocery store - then its NOT so much fun to know. Ya know? : )
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HeyJules, at 2:50 PM
I understand that thought process Jules because of my 2 stokes a few years ago (3). It puts everything into perspective. However, the mindset we all need is that we ALL could drop dead in the next nano second...or the Lord could return at any moment. Few people live like that, however.
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Pilot Mom, at 3:36 PM
Addie, I'm sorry you've had a rough day...I'm praying your evening will be better...
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Pilot Mom, at 3:36 PM
yeah, I suppose its true - none of us are promised the next second...
thank you for the prayers... today has not been good, tonight will be better, and tomorrow is full of promise... love you girls
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dangermama, at 3:47 PM
Claire, you're right to some extent. We SHOULD always remember it could end at any moment, but...it also is a very high stress way to live your life. I can barely tolerate it when I get that overwhelming feeling of "What if I really am going to die soon?" It's a miserable way to feel and a miserable way to live. You start focusing on death instead of life.
I think the secret is to live like Christ - love fully, give your best at all times, pray often, and keep your head about you when things start spiraling out of control. Focusing on life or death - either one - is no way to live. It's in the "be-ing" in the moment that we truly get the best of both worlds.
And that concludes my sermon for today! ROTFL
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HeyJules, at 4:12 PM
ha - Jules, Id listen to you preach any time... :)
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dangermama, at 4:31 PM
That's exactly what I mean, Jules.
You don't FOCUS on the dying part...you live your life as if you could be gone the next sec. So that means I'm told (let's say) that I have one day to live. What would I do? I can't remember the person (but a missionary) who was told that and a friend stopped by and saw him/her (I think it was a him) working in his garden. "Shouldn't you be doing something else?" he asked. The man looked at him and said that he had everything taken care of. He had no need to apologize to anyone, his family and friends knew exactly how he felt about them, he didn't need to 'cram' before meeting his Lord etc....so he didn't have to rush around taking care of last minute things, making sure everything was okay. Does that make sense to you? I agree exactly with what you said...Live it!!
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Pilot Mom, at 5:28 PM
thats a good story/lesson Claire, thanks for putting that up
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dangermama, at 7:27 AM
Hey Addie, I hope today is going better for you. Just wanted you to know that I've prayed for you today and will continue to do so as He brings you to mind... :)
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Pilot Mom, at 10:10 AM
claire, I fell asleep at 8:30 last night on the floor -bad days just wipe me out, but that did allow me to get 10 hours sleep.... and, yes today is wonderful so far and I have no doubt that it will get better - we have plans this afternoon which I have been looking forward to for awhile
so thank you, thank you, thank you... I definetely believe that you girls have made such a difference in my attitude the last few days....
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dangermama, at 10:24 AM
Well, its good to hear you're feeling better today. I hate to think about my friends being in pain or hurting in any way.
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HeyJules, at 12:34 PM
PTL! I'm glad to hear this! Sleep does have its finer qualities, doesn't it? Enjoy this afternoon!
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Pilot Mom, at 12:54 PM
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