An Intimate Moment with Peter

It's been a weekend full of reading for me. Some of it from the book that Dan loaned me to read; some from the book "Waking the Dead" that was referenced at our church service last Wednesday night and some from "Moments with the Savior." They've all had a profound effect on me throughout the weekend - leaving me questioning things and seeking answers.

One of the recurring themes that has circled my daily life for several months now is "Now that God is in my life and my light for Him has been turned on, how will that affect what I do for a living?" I've become more and more restless with my job as an administrative professional to the point where going to work has become almost a chore for me. Something I once loved to do has now become fruitless and has left me wanting to change directions entirely. But what? Where? How?

I think many Christians look at the story of Peter and say to themselves, "Wow, he walked away from everything he knew to follow Jesus. That must have really taken some guts..." I used to think that way. But today, reading this chapter, as I am home sick from work on a day when I probably could have gone in (but why bother) I find myself thinking Peter is the luckiest man in the entire bible. He saw so clearly what his calling was that he never stopped to doubt it. He left his career not as it was going down the tubes, but at the high point - where he had just hauled in the biggest catch of his life, and still, he walked away. He knew...somehow he knew in his bones that it was the right thing to do.

I feel God pushing me away from what I used to love so it would be easier for me to let go and move on to what He wants for me to become; but I, unlike Peter, am not so sure of things. And yet, what is stopping me? A mortgage? A puppy dog? A car payment? I know I'm going to regret this later (I almost always do...) but okay, God, here goes...

Show me. Take my hand and show me. I'll open up my life to you in the same way Simon Peter did if you will just show me what it is you desire of my life. I'm ready to cut my strings and move on if that is what you want for me to do - but I need you to show me in the same simple, direct way that you showed Simon Peter. Just tell me as simply as the words you spoke to him -

"Don't be afraid...from now on you will catch men."

Whether it be a move to something more spiritual or whether you have something in mind where I do regular work but minister to those around me through it, I invite you to share your dreams for me with me. I promise that no matter what I hear not to blame it on the Nyquil...