Just cant do it
sorry, girls, I just cant bring myself to post - I am physically and emotionally spent already... I feel like lately Ive just been shirking my posting on here, but things have just become too much...
Parts of Micah's funeral were put up today, so I watched that since I wasnt able to go on Saturday, and that just emotionally drained me... I couldnt even finish all of it
Work is really stressing me out physically, especially when we have to work 55 hours and I dont have anything to do so I just have to sit at my desk (but no exceptions for anyone)... plus Ive been blamed for something that is not entirely under my control... so Ive already cried over all of that this morning as well (being pregnant does that to me)... plus working so much, along with Daniel working so much is really starting to stress us both out along with our marriage (we arent fighting, but we are getting increasingly short with each other).... which also leaves us little time as a family or a couple...
oh yeah, and we got an email from our boss this morning saying he was putting it "in our file" if we didnt meet our required 55 hours last week - which I didnt (I was 53 1/2) b/c I had a dr's appointment.... so see what I mean about not taking sick or personal days - just cant afford to lose any of those hours b/c I just dont have the means or the time to make them up
I know things will get better, and God is always in control, but being pregnant, I am not... especially when it comes to my emotions and physical strength right now... if we are still on 55 hours by the time my next dr's appointment comes around, which is likely even though my appointment is not until May 25th, Im going to ask for a note excusing me from working all of my 55 hours b/c it is really starting to stress me out, which is not a good thing
I feel like Im always the one asking for prayer and whining about something, but lately I just cant help it.... I am one of those people who really never ever gets stressed out, so if I am, then usually its alot more than I can hope to handle on my own.... thank you for being there for me and understanding right now...
Parts of Micah's funeral were put up today, so I watched that since I wasnt able to go on Saturday, and that just emotionally drained me... I couldnt even finish all of it
Work is really stressing me out physically, especially when we have to work 55 hours and I dont have anything to do so I just have to sit at my desk (but no exceptions for anyone)... plus Ive been blamed for something that is not entirely under my control... so Ive already cried over all of that this morning as well (being pregnant does that to me)... plus working so much, along with Daniel working so much is really starting to stress us both out along with our marriage (we arent fighting, but we are getting increasingly short with each other).... which also leaves us little time as a family or a couple...
oh yeah, and we got an email from our boss this morning saying he was putting it "in our file" if we didnt meet our required 55 hours last week - which I didnt (I was 53 1/2) b/c I had a dr's appointment.... so see what I mean about not taking sick or personal days - just cant afford to lose any of those hours b/c I just dont have the means or the time to make them up
I know things will get better, and God is always in control, but being pregnant, I am not... especially when it comes to my emotions and physical strength right now... if we are still on 55 hours by the time my next dr's appointment comes around, which is likely even though my appointment is not until May 25th, Im going to ask for a note excusing me from working all of my 55 hours b/c it is really starting to stress me out, which is not a good thing
I feel like Im always the one asking for prayer and whining about something, but lately I just cant help it.... I am one of those people who really never ever gets stressed out, so if I am, then usually its alot more than I can hope to handle on my own.... thank you for being there for me and understanding right now...
posted by dangermama at
10:09 AM
9 Comments:
Geez, Addie, it sounds like you are backed into a corner. I can't imagine working 55 hr/wk when I'm NOT pregnant, so I can imagine how tired and worn out you're feeling.
I put you on my prayer journal this morning (before I even read this - imagine that...) and will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Keep an eye on your health and, if it comes to it, take the "out" by way of your physician. The last thing your employer wants is a lawsuit citing complications to your pregnancy due to exhaustion. Remember that...
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HeyJules, at 10:37 AM
(((hugs)))) Addie! First off, young lady, you are not whining and complaining all the time. Get that straight! You are expressing the way life is for you right now, at this moment, so that, we as sisters in the Lord, can lift you up before His throne of grance and mercy. :)
Don't worry about posting! Do it when you can and think nothing more about it!!!! I'm sure your mom would tell you the same.
Then, once your baby comes, I would seriously look for another place to work. One that has better hours and treats their employess better. Just a thought on my part. ;)
I'm praying for you sweetie!
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Pilot Mom, at 11:06 AM
AND, like pregnancy makes you cry...get real, girlfriend...I cry when I'm happy, I'm sad, for no reason at all and I can guarantee you, I'm NOT pregnant!!! LoL!
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Pilot Mom, at 11:07 AM
When the arm of the body is down/sick/injured... the rest of the body compensates. It doesn't say: "Get a life, you puny arm! And quit whining!"
We aren't saying that either. You REST, girl!
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Claire Joy, at 11:10 AM
See, I'm crying because I typed 'grance' instead of grace! Oh me....
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Pilot Mom, at 11:11 AM
Claire, I wondered when I saw that if you would catch it! Oh, you're crying and I'm laughing.
Addie, girl, I'm the queen of whine. I happily pass the crown to you for awhile. Have at it...
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HeyJules, at 11:25 AM
well, Claire, normally I am an emotional person anyway, but pregnancy seems to have my crying every 5 minutes or so....
and really its not a bad job, most of the time... its just when people get behind so they put the whole dept on mandatory hours - 55 is alot.... but the benefits/insurance are definetely worth it... plus, I get to work with my mom, and I enjoy that
CJ - that made me smile
here is a joke Daniel just told me...
why do chicken coups only have 2 doors? if they had 4, then it would be a chicken sedan.... :)
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dangermama, at 11:27 AM
ha ha ha! LOL!
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Pilot Mom, at 11:46 AM
BOOOOOO!!!!!
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HeyJules, at 12:32 PM
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